Taking inventory

As usual, my walk got me thinking and analyzing. I can do my best self awareness study during a 45 minute brisk walk on a cold, sunny day. It’s amazing how my clear thinking comes alive and I am able to almost mentally write a college thesis in my head. Then….my walk ends and somehow I forget about all of the great epiphanies I have reached and the resolutions I proclaimed go into hiding in the back of my mind.

Today I began laughing to myself at something that takes place on a pretty consistent basis. There is a person that finds it necessary to direct me, and correct me, in the most tedious of tasks. I used to shrug it off, then I began getting super annoyed but always let it go. In my mind I’m thinking, look here &$¥%#*! I’m 60 years old (almost) and would prefer to NOT BE TOLD THE BEST WAY to ………….!!! (don’t want to point any fingers) Yes, that’s right, you read that correctly. Apparently there is only one correct and perfect acceptable way to do this that I did not learn at the University of Central Florida where I graduated with a BSBA in 1985. I realize that it’s been many years but some things don’t change. I’m not really a pushover, it’s just that the situation is so ridiculous that I just can’t find it in me to say anything back.

I think to myself about all of the things I have accomplished in my life and I just shake my head and laugh on the inside. I have raised two very successful boys, now men, and helped raise my beautiful, talented step daughter. I participated and was successful in several statewide bodybuilding contests in the early 80’s, I was an Ergonomics Specialist at Kennedy Space Center for two years. I was Athletic Director at a country club and a Fitness Specialist at an award winning, ultra modern hospital wellness center. I taught physical education courses at a local college and was a group fitness instructor and personal trainer. I helped train an international college soccer team one summer. (I almost forgot about that) I was a speaker at chamber of commerce meetings several times and also asked to speak at a “ Girls are Great” conference for two years in a row. (almost forgot that too 🤷🏼‍♀️😂) I went through 6 1/2 weeks of radiation after my early stage breast cancer diagnosis and deal daily with an auto immune disorder. (arthritis related) I also worked as an office manager at the same small town practice for over 18 years. I met and helped many people over the years and many times just a great listener. I like to think that I made a positive impact on peoples lives and always attempt to bring out the best in people. I still try to do that on a daily basis.

The point of this is that I can reflect back and know that I have done some things that are important and good. I often dwell on the things that I could have done or should have done. The reality is that I’ve never given myself enough credit for my accomplishments and skills. The ridiculousness of being coached and corrected in such meaningless tasks is not important. If anything, it serves as a reminder of things and a motivator! For that I think I should be greatful (if it weren’t so annoying and ridiculous)

Consider this to be part one of where I’m at in life in terms of career and accomplishments. I will write more about my current job, what I’m doing, my career goals for the future, and what I do love about my current job. I will elaborate on how I “landed” there and what my future plans might be.

For now I will keep laughing on the inside at the trivial unimportant things and try to bring joy to the people I meet in my daily interactions.